Nice touch...

This morning my dad asks me where he can get one of those baby carrier things that you can strap on you chest (like a backwards backpack). I told him that he can get them at Target or Babies R' Us. Then I was like, "Why? Did you want to take Gatito on a walk or something?" (lol)

He goes, "No. Like how you got drunk and took him for a ride in the car?"

Huh?

At first I think he's just joking, but I see he is serious. I'm like, "What are you talking about?"

He tells me that "somebody" told him that I got drunk by myself the other day and then took Gatito for a ride in the car. Hahaha! First of all, I know that "somebody" was Katie because I told her that the other day when I was upset over some stupid stuff, I decided to get myself tipsy so that I could laugh instead of cry (is that a freakin crime?). I got tipsy but never once did I take Gatito, put him in the car, and go for a ride. WtH? ONLY my family can twist a story like that. My mom and Katie both have a wonderful knack for having big mouths and getting stories completely wrong.

I just love the way my dad was coming at me all confrontational-like. As if I've ever been one to have anything to hide. I was like, "I was drinking, but I did not take the cat for a drive. So he can piss all over my car? I don't think so." I think he knew I was telling the truth because he left it alone after that. (Isn't it funny that he got more mad that I took his precious little buddy on a dangerous drunken ride, then that I even got drunk by myself.... hahaha!!!!)

Ay ay ay!

Go Kristina! It's your birthday...

Okay, maybe it's not that exciting... yet. It will be tomorrow. So far it's pretty dull... just a few Happy B-day text messages from the family and Mandy. The other secretary called in not feeling too well so I am here at work alone and wasn't able to go to lunch with Liz (she was going to treat me for my birthday). I'm not mad at the other secretary though; she has a lot of health issues, so I'm not trippin'. As long as she gets herself taken care of, because really, I've had my fair share of losing those I care about around my birthday. lol. No, I know she's not going to die, but you know... You never know with me. I'm cursed.

Speaking of cursed. This morning I swear it sounded like someone was stealing my cursed car. I almost got up and looked out the window like, "what the..." but then I thought, "that would be the greatest birthday present ever" (well just behind he Coach bag... haha!). Of course, when I left for work the evil one was still there. Dang! It must have been the neighbor leaving. Oh well. I guess now it can never be stolen because then the insurance agency will somehow see this blog and say that I paid someone to steal it... hahaha!

So, I have another Secretary III interview on Monday with the Purchasing Dept. and it's way closer. It's about as far as my current position is. I would love to get it because 1) I wouldn't have to drive any further than I already do and it would be off the 10 fwy. instead of the wretched 60; and 2) having purchasing experience dealing with purchase orders and stuff is always good... I can get me into accounts payable, which is very good.

I feel bad because I'm sure that the man I interviewed with really wants me and I really wanted to go with him, but the idea of not having to drive practically all the way to the Valley, sounds much more appealing to me. Plus, I like that it's close to this office, so I can totally have lunch dates with my boss or Liz every once in a while. We'll see. Either way, whichever I take (or am given) will be a good opportunity. I will be moving up and making more money. I won't be sitting in the same spot vegitating and never going anywhere in my career. We'll see what happens...

Vegas is tomorrow. Can't wait! I know we are going to have a good time. I just hate that drive... Of course, I'll let you know what happens when I return... Back to work now....

Okay, now I feel like an A-hole!

I sat here and ranted on about how nobody thinks of me and appreciates me. Then what happens? I get a Coach bag AND Coach wallet from Mandy for my birthday.

Seriously! I come back to my desk and there is a box with U.S. Post office all over it. I knew Mandy had gotten me something and I knew it was coming today, but I did not think what was inside was going to be of the magnitude it was. It was too much!

I'm seriously crying right now. I'm ashamed and embarrased of myself for not having enough faith in my friends and the amount that they do care about me.

Whoa! I totally owe Mandy big time for this one...

Tidbits...

Okay so I interviewed for the Sec III position the other day and I've decided that I'm 90% sure that I will take it, but I'm still iffy. I just need a little more time to think it over. I think it's just too good an opportunity to pass up, I just need to discuss it with a few more important people in my life because I'm just the kind of person that needs input and feedback. Then I will make my decision. (Sheesh. I wish times were sucky at work right now... it would make it just so much easier to leave...)

What the H is up with Lindsay Lohan. That girl has got some MAD issues. I'm mean deep-rooted, self-destructive, girl-you-need-Jesus issues. My goodness! The girl has gone and got her self arrested for DUI and cocaine possession AGAIN! She just got out of rehab and now she's going right into jail. They need to do her like they did Paris and maybe she'll be scared straight. They need to put her momma in there with her, but not with her like in the same cell, otherwise it would be like they were just out there at the club... haha! Wow, that girl needs extensive help... (check out PerezHilton.com... he has all the juice...)

Who am I kidding?

I just went back and read my last post and boy was I mad and bitter. Okay, sorry, people. You aren't all "ungrateful bastards," but it sure does feel like the world is full of them. Nevertheless, I don't see myself becoming a self-centered, uncaring person like I vowed I would. It's just not in my nature. I just get fed up sometimes with people taking advantage of my generosity and love.

Things have worked themselves out, for the most part, and I'm over the anger. I was kinda shocked at just how angry I got because I have been doing exceptionally well lately. I haven't allowed myself to be upset or sensitive about hardly anything up until that point. I was letting everything just roll off these broad shoulders (stupid broad shoulders... thanks, Dad). I have not been taking things personally. All that good stuff.... I guess it just all came down on me at once. Oh well, I'm over it. As Scarlet O'Hara would say: Tomorrow is another day...

Dear Everyone,

What is it about me that makes people want to suck the life out of me?

It's okay to take and take and take from stupid Kristina, but does anyone ever stop to think what they can do for her? NEVER. There is not one human being on the face of this earth that stops and thinks to themselves--even once--"Kristina is such a good friend and does so much for me. What kind of nice little thing can I do for her today.... just to brighten up her day." Nope. No one.

It's just so easy to think of the people who we can sucker or manipulate into doing things for us, but it's nearly impossible to ever stop and think of what we can do for those people in our lives that really care and bend over backwards for us. I think I'm literally the only person I know who does the latter.

Maybe that's why people want to suck the life out of me: I'm a freakin SUCKER.

Thanks everyone, and may I add, "F you, you ungrateful bastards! I'm done, son!"

No more doing for anyone. I'm going to turn into a selfish, greedy, friendship rapist with no conscience like you all and see how you like it.

=)

My chains...

"Boston" -Augustana

In the light of the sun, is there anyone?
Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you

You said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California,
I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...

I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise,
I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care...
Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.

Who's the best?

I am! I am!

LOL. Yeah, so I had my Secretary III interview with the Dept. of Public Health. They totally loved me. I went in there with the whole I-have-nothing-to-lose vibe and ended leaving very positive that they will offer me the position. My potential future boss told me that I was an "exceptional candidate."

Oh yeah... That's right! Uh-huh!

Well, it sounds like an awesome opportunity and position, but I'm still a little torn on whether to take it. The drive is so far that I could pretty much move back to San Fernando and have the same amount of a commute that I have now. I'm NOT moving back to the Valley though, so I would be stuck with a loooooong commute. I can carpool with my Dad though because his office is only about 4 miles away. Then there is the whole problem of leaving my boss after she did everything to get me the opportunity to become a Secretary II so that I could stay her secretary. Then again, I got to think about me.

The pluses are that I will get to work for a man and I will be making even more money. The position is in the part of the Dept. that deals with children and adolescents, which is great for me. Plus, they were talking about how I would not only be doing secretarial work, but I would be working alongside them on program stuff, which means opportunity to learn more things. Sounds good to me!

I don't know though! I really got to think about this. I'm completely torn. All I can do is pray about it I guess and hope that God will give me an answer...

My weekend round-up...

So the wedding was enjoyable. It was at Quiet Canon Country Club in Montebello. Pretty nice place. I've been there before for a Clerical conference, but going for a wedding is much nicer. The food was excellent. The layout was great. I would definitely, DEFINITELY, have my wedding there if I was going to have a wedding (still debating it). Overall, very nice.

The wedding was for my dad's boss's daughter. That women is the best. She loves my dad and now calls me her adopted daughter. She was over here telling me that she was looking for my husband so that my dad could pay for my wedding to be there at the same place.... hahaha! Yeah right! I told her, "you and me both." =) She had me laughing pulling my dad up to go dancing every other song. She told him to assure me that they were not having an affair... HAHAHA! She's so cute. She's always telling me how pretty I am. The funny thing is that I hate hearing that from people, but from her I don't mind. I don't know what it is about her. I guess because she just comes off so genuine. I don't know.

She sure can throw a party though. It was off the chain. I felt like I was in one of them cliche Black movies though when everyone and there momma got on the dance floor to do the electric slide... haha! It was a sight to be seen. I'm talking like 100 people (black, white, Mexican) all in rows straight up doing the electric slide. It was pretty cool... I should have got up in there, but my feet were killing me by that point from my fabulous shoes. =)

I had a good time! I totally would love to do an event like that every weekend, I swear. I need to get out more. I did feel bad though... Kim and Mike graduated from their church's Marriage Class this weekend. I didn't go because I didn't want to use up any gas (saving for Vegas) and I was under the impression that my dad was going to spend the night Sunday night and go straight to work Monday, otherwise I would have rode with him. I was wrong. He came back Sunday night. To top it all off, he told me that no one, but him and my Aunt and Uncle made it to the graduation. That's jacked up. Mom, Katie, nor Sandy made it. Way to show your support guys! I feel real bad... truly... I hope they don't take it personally and I really hope that Mike doesn't use it to try to convince Kim that we don't have her back... =(

What else? I think that's it for now. Until the next time...

I can't believe I'm admitting this, but...

I am totally developing a baby crush on Shia LeBeouf. Does that make me a pervert? Haha! The boy is only 21 on top of that I remember when my sisters used to watch him on the Disney Channel (channel of wholesomeness) as a little nerdy 12-year-old little kid on "Even Stevens." I don't know. All I know is that ever since I saw his freakin' kissing skills on Disturbia and then after seeing him in my new favorite movie, Transformers, I'm like falling in love with the little guy. LOL!

Pervert or not, I'd make out with him... Hahaha!

A little bit of this... A little bit of that...

So, Vegas is in two weeks. Yeeeesssss! Can't wait. I need this and I better have fun. I won't be putting up with anyone's crap. Seriously. I am not afraid to go off on my own and have my own fun if I have to. Nothing is stopping me from having fun in Vegas. Woohoo!

Going to a wedding today. Going to get all prettied up and go have a nice time. I'm even down to get up and dance with people and everything. I wonder if there is an open bar? Just kidding. I don't need to drink to have fun...

Ramon called me last night. I was shocked. I really thought I made it clear that we were done with, but I think he just couldn't handle it. He must like to suffer because he kept wanting to hear me repeat what it is that he's done wrong and that I don't want anything to do with him at this point. He just doesn't get it. I felt bad a teeny tiny bit, but for the most part I was irritated that he was still picking at the scab. Let it go, man. Let it go...

My dad finally introduced me to the guy at his office that he wants me to date. =) It's so funny to me that my dad is trying to hook me up, but he actually didn't do a bad job. The guy was attractive enough and tall and very nice and he's Christian, which is the best part of the whole thing. He seemed interested too, but shy me didn't say much. I'm going down there next week for an interview, so I told my dad that we should go to lunch and to bring him. I'll do better when we are not surrounded by their co-workers. =) We'll see... I know my mom and sister are trying to hook me up with someone at their job too.... I'm keeping my options open, baby...

"Get the H*** out of my store! Please come again."

I'm sure you guys have heard that a few 7-11 stores across the country have been temporarily turned into Kwiki Marts (from the Simpsons). I know there is one in Burbank and another in L.A. somewhere. I really got to see them before they are gone. Apparently, you have to wait in a long line just to get in. I think it's worth it though.

They have everything from Buzz Cola to Squishies to Krusty-O's. Check out this blog for cool pics...

Lupus...

My co-worker was out sick yesterday, so we she came back today I asked her if she was feeling any better. She said no and I asked what was wrong. I didn't expect to hear what I heard.

She has been having a lot of medical "issues" lately, but I never thought they were to the degree that they are. I already knew from a previous conversation that she has a cyst on her ovaries. That's bad enough, but then she tells me today that she has 4 different diseases and one is Lupus. When I heard that I almost started crying. (I know Lupus all too well. My godmother died too young of Lupus and it wasn't at all an easy death.)

She explained to me that her joints will every once in a while give her problems. She said the only way she can describe it is when you are handling frozen meat and your hands start almost burn because of the cold tempurature--kind of like when people get frost bite I suppose. From the times I have handled semi-frozen ground beef, I totally know what she is talking about... after a while you have to stop and run your hands under some warm water to stop the tingling--the burning kind of tingling. I can't imagine that feeling non-stop throughout your joints. How horrible! The worst part is that they can't put her on pain meds because she is already on a million other meds for all of her other problems. Poor thing.

I feel so terrible for her, but I see her as a hero. She has all of these problems that would make me just breakdown and give up and ask God what I did to deserve all that, but no. If anything she is one of the most happy-go-lucky, cheerful, positive people I've ever known. I wish I was more like her. I wish the whole world was more like her.

Pray for her, people. God listens and He heals. I know I will be keeping her in my prayers...

Progress...

So, I've been working out on the stepping machine at home almost daily since the day I saw myself in Misty's wedding pictures and boy has it paid off. I am feeling and looking way better. I bought myself some capris this weekend and they were a size 9! Yes! I'm back in the single digits baby. lol I guess I just needed that inspiration of seeing myself looking absolutely abhorent in order to get myself motivated enough to start working out. Well, that and I want to look good for 1) the dress I am wearing to a wedding this weekend; 2) my Vegas b-day trip; and 3) Puerto Vallarta.

The added bonus is that all this excerise is kicking my endorphins in to high gear, which is causing me to be in a good mood for the majority of the time. It feels good not to be all depressed and throwing a pity party all the time. That has a lot to do with the excercise, feeling okay about the way I look, and just an effort on my part to try to think more positively and be more positive all around.

Yay! I hope I keep this up. I think the happiness alone is enough incentive to stay fit for the rest of my life!

Words cannot express...

I just got done seeing Transformers. OMG! Best f-in movie ever! I can't even put it into words.

When Optimus Prime first comes out, I almost cried. Especially when I realized that they used the same guy to do the original voice. Freakin awesome!

Go see this movie, people.... specifically those of you - who like me - watched the cartoon as a child. You will feel like you are that age again. I swear to you.

All I can say was it was a non-stop thrill! F-in fantabulous! Whoo!!!!!

Wearing the pants...

Mike was going to be married to Karen so his father sat him down for a little chat.

He said, "Mike, let me tell you something. On my wedding night in our honeymoon suite, I took off my pants, handed them to your mother, and said, "Here - try these on."

She did and said, "These are too big. I can't wear them."

I replied, "Exactly. I wear the pants in this family and I always will."

Ever since that night, we have never had any problems.

"Hmmm," said Mike. He thought that might be a good thing to try. On his honeymoon night, Mike took off his pants and said to Karen, "Here - try these on."

She tried them on and said, "These are too large. They don't fit me."

Mike said, "Exactly. I wear the pants in this family and I always will. I don't want you to ever forget that."

Then Karen took off her pants and handed them to Mike. She said, "Here-You try on mine." He did and said, "I can't get into your pants."

Karen replied, "Exactly. And if you don't change your smart ass attitude, you never will."


Muahaha!

They are all the same...

Men/guys/dudes/boys that is... They are all the same.

It doesn't matter what age, race, background, etc. they are. They are all the same.

I spent my 4th with someone yesterday who I really thought would be different. He's much older than the guys I've ever dated, but I felt like I was with another 20-something-year-old. Even at his "advanced" age he still is not ready to settle down and be with only one person, or to stop playing the "game." Wow.

Wtf is wrong with this world? Does no one have family values anymore? Will I never find a man that wants a family, doesn't want his wife to work, is done "spreading his seed," wants to devote his life to one person, wants a nice, virginal young lady to bring home to mom, etc.? Fricken frack!!!! I feel like I need to go to the-Middle-of-Nowhere, Oklahoma, in order to find a good guy.

Makes me want to cry right now!

The funny thing is that this guy pretty much acknowledged that we are not on the same page, yet he still seems to like me and even called me this morning to chat (which seems to happen to me a lot). Ugh. Why, dude? You know we are both wasting our time. Neither one of us wants the same things. I give up. I'm already moving on to the next prospect because Ms. Kristina is not in the business of trying to change people or their minds about things concerning love. Either we are playing off the same sheet of music or we are both playing two different tunes.... I'm not trying to teach you my song. Either you are playing it or your not...

Pig

I knew I didn't like Antonio Villaraigosa and I'm proud to say that I did NOT vote for him. It came out that he had an affair with a news reporter as his marriage was ending. Looks like he's probably been unfaithful long before this though... I just love how he tried to come off like this nice family man on TV. Please!

Side Note: What is with Mexican men named Antonio not being able to be faithful? (My dad is Mexican and his name is Antonio and he was unfaithful... hmmm...)

I never liked him. I have good instincts about people, plus, I usually don't like Mexican politicians because they totally milk the fact that they know that Mexicans will vote for them for the sheer fact that they are Mexican. They never encourage our people to vote their conscience or for the candidates that most go align with what they believe. That crap pisses me off. Who cares that most Mexican politicians are Democrats and are for things that most Mexicans, who are typically Catholic, should be against... Abortion for example. What does that matter, right? As long as the candidate is one of us, we are voting for him. Idiots!

Well, look who you voted for? Someone who has no ethics or morals. Someone who was too cowardly to leave his wife with dignity BEFORE he hopped into the sack with some other young muchacha. Way to go!

Blech...

Stress sucks.

Lately I have been having all kinds of issues and I know they can all be traced back to stress. For the last few months I have been having piercing chest pain and a hard time breathing when I try to sleep on my left side. Then last week, for three whole days, I was having chest pain and difficulty breathing just sitting at my desk. At first I thought it was a panic or anxiety attack, but it lasted 3 freakin days, so I started thinking maybe I had some real issue. My co-worker, Liz, was urging me to go to the doctor because her sister had similar symptoms that she ignored and ended up having a heart attack at the age of 33. That is not cool.

Eh. Despite her prodding though, I didn't go to the doctor. Why? So I can have him/her treat me like I am making a mountain out of a mole hill and then walk out of there feeling pissed off and like a dummy? No thanks! I hate that crap. That is why I hate going to the doctor. Especially at Kaiser. It might as well be a County facility. They treat you like you are wasting their time or something. Whatever. Unless I am having a full-on heart attack, stroke, etc., I ain't going.

I think I will make an appointment for a physical. I just need a general check-up. I want to see if I am healthy overall, despite all the stress.

I think I just don't take stress as well as most. I have a lot on my plate right now: work, debts, saving for my birthday trip to Vegas, saving for Puerto Vallarta, planning Sandy's baby shower, my love life and the strife that comes along with that, etc. etc. etc.

Stupid stressful etc.'s!