Good news!

I was informed by her man yesterday that Sandy is now engaged!

Yay!

Happy Day!

Congratulations to them!

!#*&$(*@&!

OMG today is a horrible day. I don't know what the f*** is wrong with me. I am ready to karate chop anyone and everyone that comes near me! Seriously! Every time someone walks by my desk I tense up and get really irritated. Get away from me. Don't talk to me. Don't bother me. Don't ask me stupid questions about anything. Don't ask me to do anything for you. Get your ass away from me and let me sit here unbothered until 6 frickin PM! I don't feel good and I don't want to deal with anyone or anything! I hate you all!

That's how I feel right now.

I think I am chemically imbalanced.

Good day...

First kiss...

This video of Baby Victor getting his "first kiss" from this cute little girl at Baby's "fake" birthday party is too dang cute. His reaction is priceless!

Just had to share!

It's play time!

Wow, this last weekend was too much freakin' fun!

First we had Baby's "fake" birthday party at this awesome place called Scooter's Jungle in Santa Clarita. It's basically a giant jungle gym with a bunch of blow up slides and bouce houses and other cool stuff. We had so much freakin fun! Mandy, Jessica, and I spent most of our time sliding down the giant slide. (I will add video links to us sliding as soon as I upload them.) Mandy had so much fun on the slide that she split her shorts down the crack and had to go to Walmart and buy new ones.... LMAO!!!!! Ah man, I think we had more fun than the kids! Plus, the place is awesome because you get a hardcore workout and you don't even realize it because of all the fun you are having.

Sunday, Baby and I went to Disneyland. We got there right when it opened, and as soon as we got through the gate, we booked it to the Finding Nemo line. It had already wrapped around the Matterhorn. We were told that it was going to be a 5-hour wait. We got in line anyway and I told Baby that it was a good thing we have already been on practically all the rides at Disneyland already. After only waiting 3 hours (haha... only), we made it to the ride. I'm not going to give away any details, but it was definitely awesome. We LOVED it! If it wasn't such a long line, we would have gotten right back on and did it again. They did such an amazing job on it. The technology and special effects are really cool and the whole ride overall was awesome.

After that we hit up Star Tours, one of our favorites, and then we ate and headed over to Disney's California Adventure (DCA) to talk to Crush (the turtle from Nemo). Baby loved that and thought it was awesome. She was giggling the whole time. Then I took her over the the Grizzly Bear Run (I think that's what it's called), which is a Roaring Rapids-type ride where you get into a giant raft and go down some rapids (duh). Baby absolutely LOVED that too. She swears that it was her favorite ride. After that one, I we got on some other stuff before we went to get her face painted and then got in line for California Screamin', baby's very first upside-down ride. She did it like a champ and of course loved it. Gosh, that kid is a gansta when it comes to these rides; she's only just 7 years old!

Here is a video of baby with her face painted and doing her hilarious "evil genius laugh" that she had me rolling on the floor with the whole day.

After DCA, we headed back over to Disneyland and got on the Matterhorn... Baby loved it, of course. After all those roller coasters, she didn't want to go on any of the little rides. They were too "boring." Haha.... Like I said: Gangsta! We only ended up staying at the parks until 7PM, but we definitely got a lot in and had a great time. I can't wait until the next trip!

All grown up....

Aw, my little baby cousin, George, is graduating High School today! I remember when he was freakin' born and now he is almost 18 and about to start college. Freaky! It means alot too because he is more like a little brother than a cousin. That boy has lived up the street from us since he was like 5. There was a time when he was at our house almost everyday.... especially when my mom came home with McDonald's... lol.

Wowser! Time really does fly. Yesterday he was this tiny little guy who was into Power Rangers and who thought "sucker" was a bad word. Now he is a little man football player who in just a little less than a month will be a man man. Crazy. It brings a tear to my eye. I love him to death and he has made his old cousin proud. =)

Like you meant it....

"Hands Down"
-Dashboard Confessional

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.

This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race from self control.

Your legs are smooth
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.

My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelry,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed,
lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here,
undiscovered.

Safe in here,
from all the stupid questions.
"Hey did you get some?".
Man, that is so dumb.

Stay quiet,
stay near,
stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.

My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelry,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember
the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair
that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock
when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.

The streets were wet
and the gate was locked
so I jumped it,
and I let you in.

And you stood at your door
with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.

And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

One more reason not to be having sex...

Haha! Just kidding, but dang... talk about a fluke accident:

Two naked people fell to their deaths from a building in S. Carolina. It was presumed that they were having sex. Oops! I guess they rolled over a little too close to the edge. How horrible....

Here we go again... UPDATE

Around 6PM, Monday night, Chewy was euthanized. He ended up having leukemia. Poor baby. He may have had it for more than a year. It was that bad. I knew it was bad because he was just skin and bones. I miss him so much. I loved him and it hurts, but I'm getting through it. I'm trying not think about it too much, although it was hard as all hell to see the picture of him and me when I logged on right now.

I've wanted to stay home everyday this week, but I've forced myself to come in because it's better than sitting there thinking about it. It's helped. I didn't cry once yesterday. I can't talk to my mom or my sisters though. Everytime I talk to them, I want to cry... especially with my mom because she was there with him when it happened.

Well, not only is work keeping me occupied, but so is this baby shower. There is a lot of work that goes into planning events... I'm telling you! I just keep doing it though. I like it. It can be stressful, but I enjoy planning. Right now I am designing the cake. Sandy wanted me to surprise her, so she doesn't know what I'm doing. I'm choosing the color, style, layout, etc. I hope she likes it and I hope it comes out well. We'll see...

Other good news: I'm going to Puerto Vallarta! Yay. Fernando is going and he threw the invite out. I said to myself, "What the heck... I've never been." In fact, I've only ever been to Mexico City, TJ, and Ensenada. Ensenada isn't exactly your resort-type town.... at least it wasn't when I went. I've always wanted to visit one of the nicer beachy areas of Mexico. It will only be for a weekend, but I have a free place to stay (Fernando's dad's house down there) and the airfare was way affordable. Now I just need to worry about getting my passport and losing some more weight... I think I have lost a little already. My clothes are fitting pretty loose right now... hmmm... Thank you, stepping machine... =)

So, yeah, life sucks and life is good all at the same time. All I can do is roll with the punches and keep moving forward...

Here we go again...

Chewy, my cat of 12 years, is sick.... very sick.

Sunday I get a text message from my sister saying that he's not eating and is really sick. They are going to take him to the vet and if it's bad they are putting him down. Of course, I flip out and start heading over there to say goodbye. This cat is my cat. He is my favorite. He was mine and I was his. He was all I had sometimes. He was what I looked forward to coming home to at those times in my teenage years when I had no one and couldn't call pretty much anyone a real friend. He was my baby.

So, I get there and we take him to the vet. He is not necessarily ready to be put down, but he does have an enlarged liver and is jaundice. Liver disease is the doctor's guess, but we won't know for sure until about 5PM today. In the meantime, he spent the night at the doctor where they have him on meds and stuck a tube down his stomach so he could get nourishment and hydration (he had been throwing up everything for the last 3 or 4 days and was skin and bones).

There is hope for now--the doc didn't feel any tumors and aparently the liver is one of the most healable organs in the body, so he could bounce right back. We'll know more by tonight or tomorrow.

Pray for me, people. Another of my cats dying is just one more thing I don't need right now...

Big Pimpin'

Yeah, I'm the bomb. LOL!

The Secretary II Eligible List was released only last week and to date I have received 3 letters and on phone call all asking if I want to interview for a position. Good thing I'm a good person, otherwise I would totally take a couple of them despite the fact that my boss pushed to help me get the Secretary II test just so I could stay in out section. Haha! That would suck if she did all that just for me to leave...

Nah, I'm going to put in my time with my Section as a Sec II for at least another year, before I try to go anywhere else... They should just see this as a sign of how awesome as a secretary and how lucky they are to have me...

(Please see my blog about my temperament unders Weakness, where it talks about being self-centered... LOL.)

Crash and burn...

That's what happened to my Tea Party theme idea for the baby shower. I don't know what happened. I loved the idea and more importantly Sandy loved the idea, yet we aren't doing it anymore. Why? Because a bunch of idiots out there who aren't contributing anything to this baby shower still thought it would be a good idea to throw their two cents in. Well, because Sandy is the kind of person that wants everyone to be happy, she decided not to do the Tea Party theme because too many people thought it was "gay" and don't want to have to dress-up for it. Nice.

She could be having an Osama bin Laden-themed baby shower, people, and I still wouldn't be trying to criticize it if I knew that I was not spending any of my own time or money on the thing. Suck it the F up and shut your damn mouth! It's not your baby shower!

Whatever. So, now it's changed after all my time and effort and freaking dress hunting. I know it doesn't sound like it, but I'm not too mad. I didn't want to sit here and force what I wanted on Sandy either. Plus, it's going to save me a lot of money because I was going to go all out: Linens, china, teapots, etc. This was going to be a nice event. Don't get me wrong though--it's still going to be a nice event, but not half as nice as it could have been...

My temperament...

I’ve been reading this book that I found at my mom’s house called “Why You Act the Way You Do” (by Tim LaHaye). I saw the title and I had to pick it up. I kind of stole it from her actually. =) Anyway, this book is all about your temperament and its strengths and weakness, and some other stuff having to do with your temperament.

Well, after reading through it and taking the little tests and whatnot, I came to the conclusion that I mostly have what’s called the Melancholy temperament. I also have a little of the Choleric temperament, but mainly it’s Melancholy. Here are some excerpts from the book on the Melancholy temperament:

“He is an analytical, self-sacrificing, gifted, perfectionist type with a very sensitive emotional nature…”

“By nature he is prone to be an introvert; but since his feelings predominate, he is given to a variety of moods. Sometimes they will lift him to heights of ecstasy that cause him to act more extroverted. However, at other times he will be gloomy and
depressed, and during these periods he becomes withdrawn and can be quite antagonistic.”

Hmmm…

The Melancholic “is a very faithful friend, but unlike the Sanguine [another type of temperament], he does not make friends easily. He seldom pushes himself forward to meet people, but rather lets them come to him. He is perhaps the most dependable of all the temperaments, for his perfectionist and conscientious tendencies do not permit him to be a shirker or let other down when they are counting on him…”

“Like the rest of us, he not only likes others, but has a strong desire to be loved by them… Disappointing experiences make him reluctant to take people at face value; thus he is prone to be suspicious when others seek him out or shower him with attention.”

He “usually finds his greatest meaning in life through personal sacrifice…”

No wonder I want to be a mom and wife so badly… lol.

Strengths:
- Usually have the highest IQs
- Excels in the fine arts, with a vast appreciation of life’s cultural values
- Adept at creative thinking
- High standard of excellence
- Dependable
- Rarely seeks the limelight, but prefers the behind-the-scenes tasks
- Self-sacrificing
- Reserved
- Self-disciplined

Weaknesses:
- Negativism
- Pessimism
- Spirit of criticism
- Impossible to satisfy
- Dissatisfied with self
- Compares self with others
- Self-centered
- Thin-skinned and touchy
- Prone to mood swings

Wow. I sure am deep. The good, the bad, and the ugly, this analysis is spot on. I can’t even deny it. I read this and think, “Dang. I have the worst of all the temperaments.” That may be true, it may not be, but the good parts of my temperament are GOOD too (not that they all apply). So, I guess I can’t complain.

This is the stuff we all need to know about ourselves. That way we can recognize our strengths and weaknesses so that we can improve upon them. My mission now is to use this information to improve myself...

What the F?!

TMZ.com is saying that they are going to make a Thundercats Movie. I am way excited because that cartoon was my show when I was little, but then I have this urge to say, "NO! That's mine!" I really don't want to share my show with all these little brat kids who weren't even born when it was on, but want to front like they are all cool and know about the 80's. Negative.

Thundercats is the ish, though, people! I loved that cartoon so much, that my mom took me down to Universal to meet the cast. They had people dressed up as the characters and I got to meet Lion-o. I totally remember it and I was only like 5-years-old.

The funny thing was that in light of the Transformers movie, which I have been waiting with baited breath for about 2 years for, I was wondering whether/wishing that they would make a Thundercats movie, but now that it's in the talks, I'm not wanting it to happen... MY THUNDERCATS!

Poor Paris...

I don't feel bad that she is going to Jail. She needs to go after all the crap she's pulled, but I did feel bad for her this morning when they showed her crying as she pulled into the jail to turn herself. I'm not going to lie; if I was her I would have been crying too. It was pretty sad. Well, it's only 3 weeks and some change, so I'm sure she'll be fine...

This is funny. I guess Madame Tussaud's in NYC (the same one I visited during my NYC trip back in October) has Paris all fitted out in an old school jailmate outfit... It's pretty goofy looking, but funny nonetheless....

I didn't see her laughing last night on the MTV Movie Awards when Sarah Siverman (who I really can't stand by the way) was saying that they should paint the bars to look like penises so she would feel at home (or something like that). Yeah, Paris really didn't laugh at that joke. But then again, didn't seem like anyone was laughing at any of Sarah's jokes... hmmm... Don't think she'll be back to host again... Actually, maybe she's not to blame; the whole show was pretty lame...

A weekend of awesomeness...

First of all, please check out these videos of my baby niece's 3-D ultrasound, which were taken yesterday and which are freakin awesome: (please excuse any blurriness... they were taken on my digital camera)

Ultrasound Video 1
Ultrasound Video 2

That was one of the best things I have ever witnessed. I can NOT wait until this child comes into the world!!! Go Baby!

Okay, coming back down to earth... Miguel's graduation was great. It was awesome seeing him achieve something so great. Very proud!

Hung out with Misty this weekend. Made the mistake of seeing myself in some of the wedding pics, but is it really a mistake? It has definitely been the wake-up call I needed to start getting my butt back into shape. I'm not even playing anymore. After that little road block, I had to calm myself down because I almost had a breakdown.

We went to eat and then headed down to the Fox Hills mall (near LAX). That is my new favorite mall people. Best Forever 21 and Macy's EVER!!!! I cheered way up when I found not one, but TWO dresses for the Baby Shower (it's a Tea Party theme, remember). This was great because in the last week I have not been able to find one dress to fit me because apparently, even when you are fat, they don't think anyone has breasts. Almost every one zipped all the way up to the boobs and then stopped there. So frustrating! Well, I was able to find two dresses that zipped all the way up and (bonus) were long enough to cover up my fat thighs and knees. Yay! I took them home and Katie helped me decide which one to keep. The other is going back. I don't need two dresses.


So yeah, overall, fantastic weekend!