Moving limbo...

So, I'm pretty much moved to the Valley. I have almost all my stuff there. I'm just waiting for my furniture to be moved. I'm kind of in between right now... *sigh*

To be quite honest, I'm depressed. I already don't like it. I've been off this week and just shopping for groceries made me upset. The people in the Valley are just so different.... in a bad way. I mean, everywhere you go you are gonna find rude, uneducated people, but it just feels like it's worse in the Valley. Everything in Pomona/Chino is just so much more calm. Plus the Christian community is just so much more REAL.

I feel lost. I feel out of place. I feel uncomfortable. I feel like I made a mistake.

*LOUD SIGH*

Then to top it all off, I MISS MY CAT! I literally broke down in tears when I stepped into the Pomona house today and picked him up after not having seen him in almost a week. I just hate leaving him behind. It would have made things so much nicer if I could have at least brought the cat with me. =(

THIS SUCKS!!! Oh and one more thing... I have to pay $50 more in rent than what I was originally under the impression I had to pay. Gah! How was this supposed to be a good thing?

Lord, please help me. I don't want to rank out on my sister and I know that I have to do this. Please give me a calm heart. Please surround me with people who love you. Please help me find a church that honors you and has REAL people in it. Please HELP ME get through this change!!

LOST...

Lost is seriously one of my all-time favorite shows, if not my most favorite of all time.

I have watched it since day one. From the moment I watched the chilling sequences of Oceanic Flight 815 break apart and land on "the island" and of dozens of maimed, injured, and dead on the beach next to strewn about fuselage--looking so darn realistic and creepy--I've been hooked.

I've grown attached to all the characters. I cried when Charlie died. I cried a few weeks ago when Sayid, Jin, and Sun died... actually I bawled my eyes out on that one. I'm SO gonna cry this Sunday on the 2 1/2-hour Series Finale. I think this one's gonna get me worse than Dawson's Creek ending. I'm just not ready to say goodbye...

But I am ready for some solid, concrete answers. lol. Don't do me dirty, Lost. Please leave me with adequate closure...

Kristina in Wonderland

My life revolves around Alice in Wonderland right now. We are throwing a party for my goddaughter's big 10th birthday and it's an Alice in Wonderland theme. This whole weekend I worked on decorations for the party:

• 2 Card Soldiers
• 1 faux Rose bush
• 8-10 "This way," "That way," "Yonder," etc signs

I also picked up some lanterns to string up over the LONG mad hatter party table and a ton of teapots and tea cups, as well as a few plates, from the Goodwill, which we will be stacking and glueing together to make some cool centerpieces. I think I will also use the centerpieces to serve some of the treats on. We'll see. Judging from the reactions to the above picture, I think people will really feel like they are at a one-of-a-kind party. I know I'm not the first to throw this type of party, but I aim to be one of the best. =)

Don't forget Nashville

I've been ranting and raving to anyone who'll hear about how funny it is that Nashville has practically been destroyed and no one seems to care. It's funny how Kanye West wanted to say that Bush "hates black people" because of the slow response to Katrina. I don't hear anyone saying that about Obama's slow response (or even lack thereof) to BOTH Nashville and the Gulf Oil Spill.

Today, Mike Gallagher wrote about the same feelings I have:

Has anybody noticed?

Nashville seems to be “the forgotten city.” The iconic home of country music, that uniquely American genre, has been devastated by floodwaters. Everywhere you turn, there is loss and damage and destruction.

And yet to pick up a newspaper or turn on the evening news, you wouldn’t even know it. I know there are important things happening right now and the news cycle can be short and frantic.

But the lack of attention towards Nashville is glaring.

Read the rest here.

SAD.

Anyway, this article also reminded me that in all my whining, I haven't given a dime, so tomorrow, while I'm paying my bills, I am going to take the time out to donate some money.

You can do the same at Feed the Children.

Like Mike said, let's pull together and show this government that we don't need it to come in and save the day for everything. We can take care of ourselves..... Not that they care.

Lord, be with the people of Tennessee as they bury their dead and re-build their towns and cities. Bring peace to all affected by this and use this horrible situation for Your glory. Amen!

Unrighteous Indignation....

I'm so angry at the world right now. I know it's sinful, but it's like I can't even control myself.

Some family members got the ball rolling earlier in the week, but now, thanks to so-called friends also letting me down when all I was trying to do was show them I care, I'm just mad at everyone. I'm feeling bitter and resentful and ready to just chuck the lot of them, boot 'em, give 'em the big Peace Out!

So many, including the family members in question, have proven that they:

• Cannot be trusted
• Only care about themselves
• Only know how to use people
• Can't handle the loving truth
• Will never take responsibility for their actions
• Only want you around as long as it benefits them
• Will not be there when the going gets rough
• Are hypocrites
• Are immature
• Will ALWAYS make me the bad guy instead of looking at who's really to blame...

And the list goes on and on...

I'M OVER IT. I DON'T NEED THIS. I HAVE PROBLEMS AND STRUGGLES OF MY OWN.

I hate to admit this, seeing as how I'm supposed to be a Christian, but I feel like turning my back on everyone INSTEAD of turning the other cheek. I'm supposed to forgive and love my enemies, but it's TIRING. I don't know how much more I can take...

Lord, help me. Only You can fix my heart and set me back on the right path.... I don't envy You Your job....

Is it bad to want to drink this feeling away? lol I kid, I kid.... or do I?

Mother's Day Disaster

So our mother's day was a disaster. I won't get into the details, but let's just say about half of us got up and left my sister Kim's house early. Dad left so early, his plate still had food on it. It was that bad.

Family fighting. No bueno.

Unfortunately, this one was one straw on the way to the straw that breaks the camel's back. Some of us are getting a little tired of the antics of others. Some of us are seriously considering backing out of the others' lives. Some of us feel like we don't know our own family members anymore. Some of us are pretty sad about it, but are just as mad too....

Lord, help us.

Hope the other Mothers out there had a WAY better Mother's day than we did...

THE Dress...

Note the tissue in her hand... We were all crying. lol

So we FINALLY took Sandy to David's Bridal on Sunday, after so much drama, and we found THE ONE: her wedding dress. As you can see it is lovely. It is Sandy--sweet, unique, different, and elegant.

She had tried this one on first and I knew it was IT; I think we all did. Sandy's face just lit up as soon as she saw it on herself. We all know that you have to try on a few before you decide, so she tried on about three more. For a minute there she was torn between this one and a more princess-y one that every single person in the store thought was beautiful, but I knew that one, although it was gorgeous, was just not Sandy. It was too much dress for her.

Finally, she put her dress back on and the tears started flowing. This was it. This was the one.

I can't wait to see the look on Juan's face when Sandy comes down the aisle looking more beautiful than ever. It's going to be a great and blessed day.

Great! Now I'm tearing up again.... =)