"And she will be loved..."

When it comes to my love life, it’s always either feast or famine. I go through these cycles where absolutely nobody is interested in me and then all of a sudden I got options. Well, at the risk of sounding conceited, I have to say that, right now, I have options… a few options.

I really don’t know what the difference is between me now and me a few months ago (other than about 11 lbs. lol), but all of a sudden I’m desirable to some people. Maybe it’s the holidays. Maybe they put people in the mood to be around someone special. I don’t know. All I know is that I literally have about 3 guys who are interested in me right now (Francisco and Internet guy being two of them).

I have no idea what to do with 1 guy, let alone 3! Yikes.

Obviously, Francisco is the guy I am hoping for. He is the most ideal as far as his beliefs and who he is as a person (at least, according to my dad). However, I keep thinking, “If Francisco doesn’t turn out to be as special as I think he is, should I keep these other guys on standby?” But then I think, “No. That sucks. I wouldn’t want to be somebody’s standby. I have no right to waste these guys’ time.” So yeah. What to do… what to do…

So, I guess it’s just friends… with all three guys. I think it’s important for whoever it is that I end up with that we be good friends first. I think developing a friendship above romance and all that is the most important.

I kind of want to hang out with each one, as a friend, and see how it goes with each one, but I’m not sure if that’s messed up or what? I’m telling you, I’ve never been in this kind of situation before. You think you want someONE special and then all of a sudden you got a line up. Double-yikes!

Either way, for the first time in a long time, I feel—dare I say it—desirable, and I DO appreciate it. As a former fat/not-so-hot girl, it’s always nice to get an ego boost here and there. =)