Kablooie!

This has been one of the worst couple of weeks ever.

I woke up last Monday with a chest that felt like it was on fire. Went to work. Started coughing. Went home. Took a nap. Woke up worse. Ended up being out the entire week with what I think was walking pneumonia, but which was diagnosed as an upper respiratory infection. Yay. I still have a cough, but thankfully it's not nearly as bad. Some days I was waking up feeling like someone jump kicked me in the chest. lol.

Then I got a little gem half-way through the week.

I hadn't heard from Henry at all since he cancelled on hiking. I was planning to let it go and let him contact me if he was still interested, but then (like the impatient genius that I am) decided that maybe he might think I was mad at him and was waiting for me to contact him. So I sent him a text message basically asking him if he was still alive. He doesn't answe me back to the following day. By that time I was a little miffed that he keeps not answering me back and because my emotions are getting toyed with, however unintentionally. My sister advises me to be honest with him, so in reply to his asking how I've been I tell him that I honestly had been worried about him since I didn't hear from him for a few days. Then I threw in a little joke about not wanting to take it personally...

Well, apparently, he didn't think that was funny. I get a reply from him that is so short and dismissive. It said something like, "Well I've been busy with my family, but I'm doing great. Nice talking to you. Take care."

I literally started tearing up on that one, but had to pull it together. Then I sent him something like this, "Hey, it's okay. I know you've been busy with your family. I was just worried. Sorry. You know, I really like you, but I feel like maybe you don't feel the same way or somewhere along the line you stopped feeling that way. I told you already that I'm okay with just being friends. You can be honest with me."

What was his reply? "I appreciate your honestly. I c u as a friend. We can still be friends and keep in touch."

WOW! I couldn't even stop the waterworks at that point, but thankfully they only last a few minutes before the Lord put a calm and peace over my heart about it. Okay. I was fine with him just wanting to be friends, but I wasn't fine with the idea that I he just never gave me a chance to show him that I could be what he wanted. Plus, wow, what a way to let me know, man. It was just confusing because he had been telling Diana about how "great" he supposedly thought I was only a few days earlier. How could me being worried about you not contacting me make you snap like that and decide that you don't want anything to do with me romantically. I was and am still floored....

TO BE CONTINUED...