Slime....

This last weekend, I went down to Long Beach for some drinks with my boss and a few other people, one of which was "Mr. F." OMG, that guy is so sleazy. I was so proud of myself though... I totally stayed clear of him. I made sure to keep at least one person or chair in between the two of us and you could tell it was driving him crazy. I was also just being really bitchy to him, which I think also drove him crazy. It was quite funny actually.

I'm sure he wanted me to sit next to him so he could hold my hand under the table or stroke my arm or what have you, but I wasn't letting it happen. I kept making smart remarks. Then Liz asks him if he thinks he is ready to get married and I just laughed and said "no." Then the conversation went elsewhere and I remember saying that all men are evil. He gives me this look like, "Huh.... not me." Oh yeah, you. I'm sure I sounded so bitter, but I made sure to throw in there all the info about Juan, the guy who rejected me, because I didn't want him having the satisfaction of thinking I could be heartbroken about him, which in actuality I'm not at all. I would still take Juan over "Mr. F." ANY DAY.

So, later on, I see him all over a certain someone. In the past that would have bothered me big time and I think he was doing it to bother me, but this time around all I could think was "better her than me" because that guy seriously gives me the heeby-jeebies at this point. Blech!

The best part of the night though was when the guy that he brought with him was totally hitting on me, gave me his card, and told me we should hang out, all right in front of Mr. F. You could tell that it bothered him and it made me crack up inside. I knew it bothered him because he turned around and gave me a deep hug in front of his friend and then kept holding on to my lower back when I tried to pull away. It was like he was saying, "remember me." It was quite amusing.

Muahaha! I am so evil. I don't care how much game you think you have, buddy, I see right through you, and I'm not a stupid, naive little girl...

Not-so-sad loss...

Wow, some messed up stuff has happened to me in the last few months and I've managed to lose a few people from my life, but for the first time, it's not at all devastating. Weird.

Lost yet another "best friend" over some stupid, prideful stuff (on her part). She just couldn't own up to what she did. She just wouldn't allow herself to see that she could have done something wrong. Well, that's not my issue. I tried to make things right, but her deep down guilt only made her more defensive, thus releasing the side of her that wasn't so nice. It also showed that in rough times I wouldn't be able to really count on her, so I guess it wasn't a big loss. I do wish her the best though. Honestly.

Lost a friend in Fernando, which really was kind of sad. He proved everyone right about him being an a-hole, but for some reason, I still feel like that was not him. Just like the previous person, he felt guilty and to protect himself he turned on me. The Fernando I knew though was way different from the Fernando others knew and I truly believe that the Fernando I knew was the real Fernando. I wish he would have just been strong enough to embrace the real Fernando. The nice guy does NOT always finish last. Screw what everyone else thinks. In the end, I know though that if a million people are telling you someone is a certain way, then 9 times out of 10, they are probably right.

Lost what I thought was a good relationship with my sister. It's sad when you think your family is somewhat close and that you don't have "those" relationship issues that other families have, only to find out that you were wrong and you guys are just as f-ed up as everyone else. I've come to realize that in reality I was the only one who really believed in a certain degree of loyalty and family. The rest only believed in those things in so far as it benefited them: I'm there for you until you piss me off. You can tell me anything in confidence until you piss me off. Etc... That's good to know. I definitely won't be teaching my children those kinds of values.

In the end, after all this, I know who my real friends are and I know who in my family truly cares for me even when they are upset with me.

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In other news, found out that my water pump is what needs to be fixed. How much does that cost? $1,700.... just for the part. All together, I will be shelling out $2,700 for the part and labor. That is freakin awesome!

So, now I have another dilemma. I can pay for these repairs on my credit card, but I was also planning to use that same card to pay any down payment I was going to need on the new car. I don't know if I can swing that now. So, now I will have to probably hold on to the car for another few months while I try to save up a little bit of money for a down. Who knows what else can happen to this car in a few months. Hahaha! With my luck, the engine will go.... Let's see first my tranny got jacked up. Then only 6 months later this crap happens. I guess I have less than 6 months to get this crap out of my life before the next catastrophe kicks off.

All the while, I have to figure out whether or not I really should be taking this trip to Ireland because obviously my finances are going to be a little tight right now and I am not trying to rack up a ginormous credit card debt, which is already high as it is. Yay! Mommy paying for it is NOT an option. If I can't do it on my own, I don't want to do it. I know she wants to, but I'm not letting Mom save the day on this one. It's been more than a year since she has had to come in and help me out and I'd like to keep it that way...

Not me anymore...

This postcard from PostSecret.com totally struck me. This is totally me up until about 2 or 3 months ago. I'm am so happy to say that it's not anymore...

As corny as it sounds, the beautiful me is winning...

9 Things I Hate About Everyone...

(From an email I got...)

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?
2 People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.
3 When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?
4 When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!
5 When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.
6 People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?
7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.
8 When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?
9 When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?

For my fellow Disneyland fans...

Those who know me even minimally know that I am obsessed with Disneyland. I love the place. There isn't a year in my life that I can recall not going to Disneyland at least once. I know where every restroom is. I know where every drinking fountain is. I know where every ride is. Etc, etc. I love DISNEYLAND!!!

Anyway, every once in a while I will surf the net for sites run by other Disney fans and boy are there good ones. So, I decided to share my findings with anyone who might be interested in the history of and the behind-the-scenes info on Disneyland:

Yesterland.com
This site has pictures and descriptions of all the now-extinct rides and attractions at Disneyland. Do you remember a specific ride you used to get on when you are little, but can no longer find it at the park? You'll find it in Yesterland. I love knowing all the history of Disneyland and the way it used to be when my mom was young... this site totally feeds my need for that knowledge.

DoomBuggies.com
This site has everything--and I mean EVERYTHING--you want to know about the Haunted Mansion. Check it out. First time I found this site, I spent hours going through it and I learned so much. You'll definitely never see the ride the same again. WARNING: Don't read if you don't want to know how they do some of the special effects.

TellNoTales.com
All you need to know about The Pirates of the Carribean ride. Just like DoomBuggies.com, this one gives you all the info and history on the awesome ride that inspired the movies. Did you know that Pirates was originally going to be a walk-thru ride with a miniature pirate village? Check out this site for that story and more.

LaughingPlace.com
This site provides info on all Disney parks around the world. Every rumor, tidbit, etc. is addressed. This one's been around a while.

There are others, believe me, but there are too many to list. Enjoy these ones though.... They have mountains of info and media. Enjoy!

7 reasons not to mess with children.

A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales.
The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small.
The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale.
Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was physically impossible.
The little girl said, "When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah".
The teacher asked, "What if Jonah went to hell?"
The little girl replied, "Then you ask him".

A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing. She would occasionally walk around to see each child's work.
As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked what the drawing was.
The girl replied, "I'm drawing God."
The teacher paused and said, "But no one knows what God looks like."
Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing, the girl replied, "They will in a minute."

A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with her five and six year olds.
After explaining the commandment to "honour" thy Father and thy Mother, she asked, "Is there a commandment that teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?"
Without missing a beat one little boy (the oldest of a family) answered, "Thou shall not kill."

One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink. She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head.
She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of your hairs white, Mom?"
Her mother replied, "Well, every time that you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white."
The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said, "Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are white?"

The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture.
"Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say, 'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, He's a doctor'
A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there's the teacher, she's dead."

A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood. Trying to make the matter clearer, she said, "Now, class, if I stood on my head, the blood, as you know, would run into it, and I would turn red in the face."
"Yes," the class said.
"Then why is it that while I am standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn't run into my feet?"
A little fellow shouted,
"Cause your feet ain't empty."

The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary school for lunch. At the head of the table was a large pile of apples. The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray:
"Take only ONE . God is watching."
Moving further along the lunch line, at the other end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies.
A child had written a note, "Take all you want. God is watching the apples."

Baby shower rundown...

So, aside from all my drama this weekend (see previous blog entry) and the unbearable heat, Sandy's baby shower turned out great. A very good amount of people showed up despite the fact that it was more than 100 degrees and the baby shower took place outside. The decorations and layout came out good. The cake came out good. The diaper cake, after I finished it, was a hit. The food was good. The games were successfull. The raffle was succesful (they left with about $115). Sandy cleaned up on presents. It was a complete success. Score!

I am so good at throwing together these functions. I had a whole schedule laid out and it pretty much all went according to plan, and because of that everyone seemed to be entertained and practically no one left early. They all stayed to the end. I'm sure that was because Sandy is so loved, but I have to say that part of it was because my goal was not to let anyone get bored and to keep things moving. So, anyone who laughed at me for being anal and wanting to plan every detail down to the schedule of activities can kiss my booty because it all ended up making the baby shower an awesome event. I guess there are pluses to being an anal control freak... haha!

Now who wants to hire me for their special occasion? LOL!

Hell of a weekend in hell...

So, instead of getting into details about my weekend (because it would literally take me hours to type it all out), I'm just going to list short summaries and you can just fill in the blanks yourself:

1. It's hot as HELL (hence my title) and I'm in S. Clarita where it's hotter than Hell.

2. My car broke down again. Found out my extended warranty ended 2,000 miles ago. 2,000 MILES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is practically nothing. This time it's somewhat my fault because I put the wrong kind of coolant in the car and now have to have my cooling system repaired (flushing of system, replacing of seals, any other damage as a result of my stupidity, etc.). This car is so leaving my life after these repairs are complete.

3. Got rejected by someone I really liked. He was totally, by all signs and behavior, feeling me too for a minute there, but then out of nowhere he was acting like he didn't even know me. I am still shocked and confused. His friends liked me. His friends' girlfriends liked me. His best girl friend liked me. He seemed to like me. Then all of a sudden he's talking about how beautiful some other chick is and how he wants to get with her right in front of me. Gosh! What is the deal!? Actually, I know what the deal was: Fear.... fear of a good thing right in front of your face. That's understandable when you are still healing from an ex-wife who is crazy and has admitted that your oldest child is probably not yours, but does that mean that I deserve to get my feelings hurt because you aren't ready for another relationship. No.

4. My relationship with one of my best friends is now over and it has ended bitterly. I'm not the type to place the all the blame on someone because I know that there are always contributing factors on both sides of a problem, but in this case, I know I didn't do anything wrong. She and my sister decided to talk about me behind my back. When I tried to apologize for my part of it, forgive her for hers, and let it go, she got defensive (which tells me she's guilty), tried to flip the script on me to make me look like the messed up party, and insulted me and the person that I am. Negative. You can convince yourself all you want, hun, but the truth is that I have always been straight up and to the point with you, but you have not been with me. Whatever. I'm over it. I have a few friends in my life who I know love me for me, recognize that I have made changes for the better, and who don't throw the past in my face, all because they know they f-ed up. That's all I need. Thanks...