Pain and Starvation

Okay, I take it back. I'm complaining!! I can't eat anything because it hurts to chew. I HATE THESE SPACERS!

Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not nice when I'm hungry. I feel very not nice today. I did eat my lunch, but hardly. I made the unfortunate mistake of bringing Pot Roast. I was able to eat the soft veggies, but the meat itself I pretty much had to break into tiny pieces and just swallow whole. I tried chewing once and it was no bueno. My molars where throbbing. It's kinda hard to chew with your front teeth, so I gave up on that. Then on top of all that, everything get's stuck everywhere (I know I complained about that previously, but I'm complaining again, okay. LOL).

I went online and typed in "what to eat with spacers." Yeah, pretty much everything/everyone said ice cream, soup, and mashed potatoes (I'm lactose intolerant and all those things are chock full of carbs). So, I don't know what the heck I'm going to do. All I have at home is protein and salad, and I think at this point even lettuce will be too hard for me to chew.

*crying*

I want to lose weight, but not by starvation!!!! What am I going to do....

Well thith thuckth...

Got my spacers in yesterday (finally), but I'm already hating them big time. I sound like Daffy Duck ("Thuffering Thoccotash!") and everything I eat gets stuck in a million different crevices. It's so annoying! I'm embarrased when I talk and I'm definitely having a not-so-good time answering the phones. Unfortunately, my boss' name, her boss' name, and my own name all contain at least one "s." So, I'm sounding like an idiot everytime I say their and my names. Gah!

I guess the only benefit is that I will definitely NOT be overeating for the next 3 months. I seriously can't even enjoy food anyway. I'm too busy worrying about not getting bits and pieces stuck in this contraption.

Sorry, I know I sound like a big whiner and complainer, but this really is no fun. I know it will be worth it in the end though, so maybe I should just keep my big metal-filled mouth shut...

A weekend of almost losing...

I was all excited this weekend. I bought a cute new dress for my friend Susy's wedding on Saturday and I was heading over on Friday to run errands with Sandy for Kaylin's birthday party. It was going to be a fun and full weekend, but then halfway through my day, I got the kind of news you don't want to get.

I was so busy, I wasn't paying attention to my phone. We stopped for lunch and I finally took it out to see if I had any messages. I had a voicemail and three texts from my friend Mandy (who works with Susy). "Call me." "Kris call me asap." "Where are you babe?"

Weird, but I didn't think it was anything too serious. I call Mandy and she tells me that there isn't going to be a wedding because Susy was involved in a bad accident and it "doesn't look good."

What!?! Talk about being in shock. I told Sandy (who was also going to the wedding) and we both just sat there, at a loss for words. I teared up and was scared, but at the same time, I took the severity with a grain of salt. I love Mandy, but sometimes she can blow stuff out of porportion. She made it seem like our friend was on her deathbed. I refused to believe it until I had some solid information.

Well, needless to say, my whole day was ruined and all I could do was think about whether my friend was going to die and how much I regretted not being in her life consistently for the last few years. (We've had our ups and downs, but at the end of the day, I love this girl to death... especially right now. lol) Thank goodness I was busy with Baby K's birthday and was somewhat distracted, but only somewhat.

Then I hear more news from Mandy: Supposedly Susy has broken "pretty much every bone in her body." Great. I call my sister, who works in an ER, and she tells me that if that is true that she probably won't live because of the amount of trauma. I don't want to hear that! So I start getting upset again.

We find out what hospital Susy was taken to and my sister calls to see if she can get any information. Turns out she's stable, but she's broken her wrist, ankle, and hip. She's in emergency surgery for the hip. She should be okay. Thank you, Jesus! (I'm tearing up again. Great! lol)

Now that's the kind of news I wanted to hear.... well, except for the whole broken bones part. =) I'm just so glad that she's gonna live and that eventually there is going to be a wedding and everything's gonna be okay. God is so good.

My number one lesson from all this: Cherish those you love, whether near or far, because in a blink of an eye they can be taken from you and then you've lost your chance to show them how much they mean to you. Thank the Lord for my second chance. I'm gonna love on that girl the first chance I get! Thank you, thank you, thank you, Jesus!


Here is the news story on the accident:

Two people injured in Highway 126 head-on collision : Local News : Ventura County Star

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"Beware of strange men promising free medical care."

This is too good. And Instapundit is right, this is a parable for our times... for at the moment there is indeed one strange man promising free medical care who we should beware of. lol

A PARABLE FOR OUR TIMES: They thought it was about free health care, but it was actually a mugging.

They were well-dressed when they knocked on the door of a Huntington home last month and said they had information about President Barack Obama’s health care plan. That’s how they got inside to commit a violent home invasion on Aug. 29, a Suffolk prosecutor said Monday. A woman who lives at the house answered the door and said she would take one of the pamphlets. That’s when Thompson, 31, of Brooklyn and Desir, 26, of Nyack forced their way inside, Kurtzrock said.

Beware of strange men promising free medical care.

Early morning cup of... smut

To get to and from work I take the dreaded 60 freeway. Worst freeway ever! It's like everyone who drives it has left their brain at home/work. Everyday is a fight for my survival. lol

The worst thing--WORST THING--about that freeway for me, though, is the amount of disgusting billboards I have to see as I go to work in the morning. It's like they have every disgusting sin they can find up there. You got beer ads, strip club ads (with half-naked chicks, totally spread-eagle), Vegas ads, etc. It's really gross and I'm tired of being forced to have to see them everyday. Seriously. I'm on the verge of complaining, but what's the use? The world thinks there is nothing wrong with any of these things.

I used to think I would never have TVs in my car. I grew up without them and so can my kids. There are more constructive things they can do with their time (like read!) than stare at the tube not only at home, but also in the car. Well, now I'm starting to change my mind about that. I would rather have my kids back there watching Veggie Tales or a Disney movie, than to have them looking out the window at some stripper in nothing but a tiny bikini, squatting with her legs wide open for all of the world to see. No thanks. "Kids, keep your eyes on Nemo... "

What is wrong with our community when we can mindlessly drive past this stuff and not even flinch... well, except the guys. I'm sure they can't help but look at Stripper Sally and her "goods" (imagine these guys trying to stay pure-minded, having to try to avoid this crap everyday... I really give it to you, guys). No one says anything (me included). We just sit back and accept it to the point where we don't even notice that stuff we don't want our kids exposed to is being forced on them left and right. Not cool.

When are we going to open up our eyes?

They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more. You, however, did not come to know Christ that way. -Ephesians 4:18-20

Boredom and Being Creative

This has been the slowest week ever! It started out with me not feeling well and even going home early on Monday (I only worked 3 hours). Then for some reason, my sickness gave me very little patience and it was everything for me not to be rude yesterday. I had to drop by church to pick up the materials for upcoming Women's Bible Study (yay Bible Study), but was not able to stay for Moments with the Master because, again, not feeling well and not in the best mood. Now, I feel better, but boy am I bored.

This morning was good. I covered the other secretary's desk and managed to not do anything stupid (Thank you, Jesus!). Now that she's in, however, I find myself with nothing to do. I hope this doesn't become a regular occurance...

Anyway, I've been getting very creative lately with my custom invites and stuff, but this last weekend my dad and I did something really cool. We made a wood standup cutout (don't really know the techinical term) for Kaylin's Country Fair birthday party. Check it out (pre-face holes):

I have to say I'm pretty proud of this. I think we did a very good job. I came up with the concept and free-handed most of it with a pencil (my dad helped with the guy--I'm not good with the human form--and the whip and boots). We both painted it. It was so much fun and I was totally excited about how good it came out. Thankfully, so was Sandy. I can't wait to see all the little kids (and big kids) taking pictures with it. It's gonna be cute and I'm sure a little funny.

Well, now I have the creative bug big time and I'm wishing the weekend was here so I could get to work on more crafty stuff for the party. Maybe that's why the week feels like it's dragging on... I got things to do this weekend!

Come on, weekend! Hurry up and get here....

Party planning, as usual...

So we are planning my niece Kaylin's 2nd Birthday Party and it's going to be a Country Fair theme. We are going to have carnival games and treats, and even a bounce house. It's going to be awesome. I'm really excited and so are Sandy and Juan (yes, even Juan!). Our challenge is to do it all on a budget, and so far it seems like we should be able to swing it and still have a successful and creative party.

I think I have a party planning addiction. I can't just throw a small party. I always have to get super creative and blow it up into a full-blown event. What can I say? I love to do these things for the people I love... and I admit, I love the praise I get for all my creativity and hard work. "You should start your own business." "You are so good at this!"

That's so bad, isn't it? It's not Christian to be wanting all the praise like that. The glory needs to go to God, not me. Bad, Kristina!

No, but seriously. All the praise and glory does go to Him and I think when people see the love that we have for Sandy, who isn't even our blood sister, it speaks to the love of God through us. I will try my best to give Him the glory when this thing goes down, because I'm not gonna lie... this party is gonna be the bomb! =)

Just another face in the crowd...

I've been trying to regularly go to the Young Adult Bible Study at church for 18- to 35-year-olds. It's really cool and I like the leader (I think his name is Mike). I like that I'm around other people my age and we are learning together.

I have to admit something though: I've been secretly hoping that I would be approached by someone--anyone--while I'm there. I keep thinking, "maybe someone will notice me and want to come up and get to know me." Alas, that never happens. The most interaction I get while there is the greeting we give each other before we start.

I try to be as friendly as I can be. I even try to smile more and to seem more approachable, but it's not working. I know the answer is that I need to do the approaching, but, honestly, I'm TERRIFIED. Really. I am not good at being sociable and outgoing. It just sucks because right now, more than almost anything, I just want to make friends with believers my own age, but it seems to not be happening. Ugh!

This fact was really driven home for me this weekend as I hung out with some old friends. Everything was good overall, but as usual, I caught some heat about my beliefs and was even mocked. I guess I'm used to it, so it doesn't really hurt my feelings (even though you never see me mocking them or criticizing their lifestyles), and I know that these people are lost and don't know what they are talking about, but it really just makes me feel like I only want to be around young people who have the same beliefs and mindset. It's like I can only relate to my sisters who are believers because pretty much all of my young friends have no clue.

Lord, PLEASE put people into my life who love You or give me the courage to actively seek them out. I'm scared. Scared of being alone in this world and of having to put myself out there. Help me...