Nice touch...

This morning my dad asks me where he can get one of those baby carrier things that you can strap on you chest (like a backwards backpack). I told him that he can get them at Target or Babies R' Us. Then I was like, "Why? Did you want to take Gatito on a walk or something?" (lol)

He goes, "No. Like how you got drunk and took him for a ride in the car?"

Huh?

At first I think he's just joking, but I see he is serious. I'm like, "What are you talking about?"

He tells me that "somebody" told him that I got drunk by myself the other day and then took Gatito for a ride in the car. Hahaha! First of all, I know that "somebody" was Katie because I told her that the other day when I was upset over some stupid stuff, I decided to get myself tipsy so that I could laugh instead of cry (is that a freakin crime?). I got tipsy but never once did I take Gatito, put him in the car, and go for a ride. WtH? ONLY my family can twist a story like that. My mom and Katie both have a wonderful knack for having big mouths and getting stories completely wrong.

I just love the way my dad was coming at me all confrontational-like. As if I've ever been one to have anything to hide. I was like, "I was drinking, but I did not take the cat for a drive. So he can piss all over my car? I don't think so." I think he knew I was telling the truth because he left it alone after that. (Isn't it funny that he got more mad that I took his precious little buddy on a dangerous drunken ride, then that I even got drunk by myself.... hahaha!!!!)

Ay ay ay!

Go Kristina! It's your birthday...

Okay, maybe it's not that exciting... yet. It will be tomorrow. So far it's pretty dull... just a few Happy B-day text messages from the family and Mandy. The other secretary called in not feeling too well so I am here at work alone and wasn't able to go to lunch with Liz (she was going to treat me for my birthday). I'm not mad at the other secretary though; she has a lot of health issues, so I'm not trippin'. As long as she gets herself taken care of, because really, I've had my fair share of losing those I care about around my birthday. lol. No, I know she's not going to die, but you know... You never know with me. I'm cursed.

Speaking of cursed. This morning I swear it sounded like someone was stealing my cursed car. I almost got up and looked out the window like, "what the..." but then I thought, "that would be the greatest birthday present ever" (well just behind he Coach bag... haha!). Of course, when I left for work the evil one was still there. Dang! It must have been the neighbor leaving. Oh well. I guess now it can never be stolen because then the insurance agency will somehow see this blog and say that I paid someone to steal it... hahaha!

So, I have another Secretary III interview on Monday with the Purchasing Dept. and it's way closer. It's about as far as my current position is. I would love to get it because 1) I wouldn't have to drive any further than I already do and it would be off the 10 fwy. instead of the wretched 60; and 2) having purchasing experience dealing with purchase orders and stuff is always good... I can get me into accounts payable, which is very good.

I feel bad because I'm sure that the man I interviewed with really wants me and I really wanted to go with him, but the idea of not having to drive practically all the way to the Valley, sounds much more appealing to me. Plus, I like that it's close to this office, so I can totally have lunch dates with my boss or Liz every once in a while. We'll see. Either way, whichever I take (or am given) will be a good opportunity. I will be moving up and making more money. I won't be sitting in the same spot vegitating and never going anywhere in my career. We'll see what happens...

Vegas is tomorrow. Can't wait! I know we are going to have a good time. I just hate that drive... Of course, I'll let you know what happens when I return... Back to work now....

Okay, now I feel like an A-hole!

I sat here and ranted on about how nobody thinks of me and appreciates me. Then what happens? I get a Coach bag AND Coach wallet from Mandy for my birthday.

Seriously! I come back to my desk and there is a box with U.S. Post office all over it. I knew Mandy had gotten me something and I knew it was coming today, but I did not think what was inside was going to be of the magnitude it was. It was too much!

I'm seriously crying right now. I'm ashamed and embarrased of myself for not having enough faith in my friends and the amount that they do care about me.

Whoa! I totally owe Mandy big time for this one...

Tidbits...

Okay so I interviewed for the Sec III position the other day and I've decided that I'm 90% sure that I will take it, but I'm still iffy. I just need a little more time to think it over. I think it's just too good an opportunity to pass up, I just need to discuss it with a few more important people in my life because I'm just the kind of person that needs input and feedback. Then I will make my decision. (Sheesh. I wish times were sucky at work right now... it would make it just so much easier to leave...)

What the H is up with Lindsay Lohan. That girl has got some MAD issues. I'm mean deep-rooted, self-destructive, girl-you-need-Jesus issues. My goodness! The girl has gone and got her self arrested for DUI and cocaine possession AGAIN! She just got out of rehab and now she's going right into jail. They need to do her like they did Paris and maybe she'll be scared straight. They need to put her momma in there with her, but not with her like in the same cell, otherwise it would be like they were just out there at the club... haha! Wow, that girl needs extensive help... (check out PerezHilton.com... he has all the juice...)

Who am I kidding?

I just went back and read my last post and boy was I mad and bitter. Okay, sorry, people. You aren't all "ungrateful bastards," but it sure does feel like the world is full of them. Nevertheless, I don't see myself becoming a self-centered, uncaring person like I vowed I would. It's just not in my nature. I just get fed up sometimes with people taking advantage of my generosity and love.

Things have worked themselves out, for the most part, and I'm over the anger. I was kinda shocked at just how angry I got because I have been doing exceptionally well lately. I haven't allowed myself to be upset or sensitive about hardly anything up until that point. I was letting everything just roll off these broad shoulders (stupid broad shoulders... thanks, Dad). I have not been taking things personally. All that good stuff.... I guess it just all came down on me at once. Oh well, I'm over it. As Scarlet O'Hara would say: Tomorrow is another day...

Dear Everyone,

What is it about me that makes people want to suck the life out of me?

It's okay to take and take and take from stupid Kristina, but does anyone ever stop to think what they can do for her? NEVER. There is not one human being on the face of this earth that stops and thinks to themselves--even once--"Kristina is such a good friend and does so much for me. What kind of nice little thing can I do for her today.... just to brighten up her day." Nope. No one.

It's just so easy to think of the people who we can sucker or manipulate into doing things for us, but it's nearly impossible to ever stop and think of what we can do for those people in our lives that really care and bend over backwards for us. I think I'm literally the only person I know who does the latter.

Maybe that's why people want to suck the life out of me: I'm a freakin SUCKER.

Thanks everyone, and may I add, "F you, you ungrateful bastards! I'm done, son!"

No more doing for anyone. I'm going to turn into a selfish, greedy, friendship rapist with no conscience like you all and see how you like it.

=)

My chains...

"Boston" -Augustana

In the light of the sun, is there anyone?
Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you

You said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California,
I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...

I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise,
I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care...
Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.

Who's the best?

I am! I am!

LOL. Yeah, so I had my Secretary III interview with the Dept. of Public Health. They totally loved me. I went in there with the whole I-have-nothing-to-lose vibe and ended leaving very positive that they will offer me the position. My potential future boss told me that I was an "exceptional candidate."

Oh yeah... That's right! Uh-huh!

Well, it sounds like an awesome opportunity and position, but I'm still a little torn on whether to take it. The drive is so far that I could pretty much move back to San Fernando and have the same amount of a commute that I have now. I'm NOT moving back to the Valley though, so I would be stuck with a loooooong commute. I can carpool with my Dad though because his office is only about 4 miles away. Then there is the whole problem of leaving my boss after she did everything to get me the opportunity to become a Secretary II so that I could stay her secretary. Then again, I got to think about me.

The pluses are that I will get to work for a man and I will be making even more money. The position is in the part of the Dept. that deals with children and adolescents, which is great for me. Plus, they were talking about how I would not only be doing secretarial work, but I would be working alongside them on program stuff, which means opportunity to learn more things. Sounds good to me!

I don't know though! I really got to think about this. I'm completely torn. All I can do is pray about it I guess and hope that God will give me an answer...